Hurt & pain

Don't you love when you get told that someone can't spend time with you because they have tons of homework to do. Then all day long they fuck around with shit for other people, and sit at a fucking bar all day long. My heart hates loving someone who doesn't hold me higher then a piece of dog shit. I just want to fucking punch something right now. I hurt so bad and just want to cry but, I can't even bring myself to tears because I'm so mad. My blood is boiling like crazy, I really need to walk it off but I can't go outside because my daughter is sleeping. I have responsibilities unlike certain people I know. I'm so pissed I can't even stop to think about one thought right now so I just need to stop until I can calm down, if I can! Ok so I've been trying to calm down. It's not really working at all! My heart is hurting and it's pumping so hard because I can't calm down. I still need to try to calm down and I'm really having a very hard time right now. Grr!!!! Headache is kicking in now. Tensed up neck and back and shoulders. The people that should care, are proving that they don't! That hurts worse!