Unworthiness

How demeaning is it when the person you want to spend the rest of your life with tells you that they love you and want to marry you, but, they then follow that with I don't see why we can't do the whole ceremony thing and then just not sign the papers. Signing a paper isn't the whole point of getting married. Why is it so important to sign the papers. Well to be honest without signing those papers your not legally married, meaning, you cover yourself with your own insurance because we're not married you have to cover yourself. Oh when you fill out papers, yea you still mark the single box because your not legally married, because we're not legally married, if anything happens to one of us without a living will stating otherwise yea your parents or your family get to make all the decisions same goes for my family. Without being legally married my lastname and our girls' last names stay as they are. Not being legally married pretty much just gives you the right to walk around and continue to act as if your single because you didn't sign a fucking piece of paper. I'm not worthy enough for you to want to legally be married to me!? You say it's just a piece of paper, then whats so wrong with signing it if its not that important. Glad to know your unattractive, black hearted ex-wife was good enough for that stupid piece of paper but I'm not. I've been with you longer than you two were together, and 2 of the years you were still married you were fighting for the divorce and you were with me. If you want to do everything but the legality of it all we might as well just not even be engaged. Because we will never get married. You have made it completely clear that you do not want to be fully married to me, so when you say you do, or when you say you want to be with me forever... that's a bunch of bullshit! It sucks that I feel so strongly for someone who has on more than one occasion said that he is only in this relationship for the pussy! Your just rude and hurtful!